THUG LYFE

aspiring writer/artist. struggling for financial/emotional stability. pot smoker. whiskey drinker. english teacher who mis-spells things. 22. Berkeley, California native. currently living in sao calors, brazil.

any writing/photos i post are mine.
curveappeal:

i have felt overweight all my life; i have been on my first diets in primary school with my mom ‘supporting me.’ everyone has always referred to me as ‘chubby’ or ‘curvy’ or ‘a bit more than normal.’ when my man proposed, that weekend my mother said: “oh, perhaps this will finally be some inspiration to lose a little weight!” she smiled — i know she meant in lovingly. since then, several bridal dress sellers have winked at me,  commenting: “and we want to hide those little love-handles, don’t we?” or: “well you know, when the day approaches most brides tend to lose some weight — purely out of stress.” i couldn’t believe the shock in their eyes when i replied that i’m a 25-year-old woman, not a girl - i have those curves, and i think it’s time to embrace them, not hide them.to be honest, i thought that, when the wedding day comes, i’d be either okay with my figure or as skinny as my head wants me to be. but the day is coming closer and this is STILL who i am (5,2 ft / 147 lbs / UK size 14). 
i guess i will never lose those curves that people seem to think are a tad too much — this is how i’ve always been. i am now trying to come to loving terms with what i will look like on that important day of my life, because it is just so terribly sad to think that a bride must hate herself so much. by now i have taken hundreds of pictures of me in my dress, alone, just because i have absolutely no feeling for what i truly look like from the outside. today, i literally cannot tell - but i hope that one day i will see myself clearly enough to defend myself and women like me wholeheartedly. part of me deep down knows: we should not have to feel like we need to fit the dress - the dress needs to fit US!!

SOOOO MUCH YES 👏👏👏👏👏

curveappeal:

i have felt overweight all my life; i have been on my first diets in primary school with my mom ‘supporting me.’ everyone has always referred to me as ‘chubby’ or ‘curvy’ or ‘a bit more than normal.’ when my man proposed, that weekend my mother said: “oh, perhaps this will finally be some inspiration to lose a little weight!” she smiled — i know she meant in lovingly. since then, several bridal dress sellers have winked at me,  commenting: “and we want to hide those little love-handles, don’t we?” or: “well you know, when the day approaches most brides tend to lose some weight — purely out of stress.” i couldn’t believe the shock in their eyes when i replied that i’m a 25-year-old woman, not a girl - i have those curves, and i think it’s time to embrace them, not hide them.

to be honest, i thought that, when the wedding day comes, i’d be either okay with my figure or as skinny as my head wants me to be. but the day is coming closer and this is STILL who i am (5,2 ft / 147 lbs / UK size 14). 

i guess i will never lose those curves that people seem to think are a tad too much — this is how i’ve always been. i am now trying to come to loving terms with what i will look like on that important day of my life, because it is just so terribly sad to think that a bride must hate herself so much. by now i have taken hundreds of pictures of me in my dress, alone, just because i have absolutely no feeling for what i truly look like from the outside. today, i literally cannot tell - but i hope that one day i will see myself clearly enough to defend myself and women like me wholeheartedly. part of me deep down knows: we should not have to feel like we need to fit the dress - the dress needs to fit US!!

SOOOO MUCH YES 👏👏👏👏👏

antipahtico:

Fantastic Novels Magazine ~ Virgil Finlay 1949

antipahtico:

Fantastic Novels Magazine ~ Virgil Finlay 1949

monicalewinsky1996:

cindymayweather:

"One fun fact I learned while on the air with Keith Olbermann was that humans on the Internet are scumbags. People say children are cruel, but I was never made fun of as a child or an adult. Suddenly, my disability on the world wide web is fair game. I would look at clips online and see comments like, "Yo, why’s she tweakin?" "Yo, is she retarded?" And my favorite, "Poor Gumby-mouth terrorist. What does she suffer from? We should really pray for her." One commenter even suggested that I add my disability to my credits: screenwriter, comedian, palsy."

Maysoon Zayid on TEDWomen (x)

this is SO IMPORTANT I AM YELLING

(via hex-girlfriend)

&& then all of a sudden it’s as if I took my last dose yesterday instead of in August.

&& then I find myself googling “opiates in brazil”

&& then I try to imagine myself bribing an employee of the Pharmacy down the street

&& then I want to drown

&& then I want a Valium or two or seven

(but still all I really want is to get high)


I don’t know if days like this will ever go away.