i have felt overweight all my life; i have been on my first diets in primary school with my mom ‘supporting me.’ everyone has always referred to me as ‘chubby’ or ‘curvy’ or ‘a bit more than normal.’ when my man proposed, that weekend my mother said: “oh, perhaps this will finally be some inspiration to lose a little weight!” she smiled — i know she meant in lovingly. since then, several bridal dress sellers have winked at me, commenting: “and we want to hide those little love-handles, don’t we?” or: “well you know, when the day approaches most brides tend to lose some weight — purely out of stress.” i couldn’t believe the shock in their eyes when i replied that i’m a 25-year-old woman, not a girl - i have those curves, and i think it’s time to embrace them, not hide them.
to be honest, i thought that, when the wedding day comes, i’d be either okay with my figure or as skinny as my head wants me to be. but the day is coming closer and this is STILL who i am (5,2 ft / 147 lbs / UK size 14).
i guess i will never lose those curves that people seem to think are a tad too much — this is how i’ve always been. i am now trying to come to loving terms with what i will look like on that important day of my life, because it is just so terribly sad to think that a bride must hate herself so much. by now i have taken hundreds of pictures of me in my dress, alone, just because i have absolutely no feeling for what i truly look like from the outside. today, i literally cannot tell - but i hope that one day i will see myself clearly enough to defend myself and women like me wholeheartedly. part of me deep down knows: we should not have to feel like we need to fit the dress - the dress needs to fit US!!
SOOOO MUCH YES 👏👏👏👏👏